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2011-12-03T05:14:00.000-08:00

If hearts didn’t have to fall, I’d not waste a single minute of sleep on you. If hearts didn’t have to fall I would sleep alone tonight – but my heart has for yours and tonight I sleep with you in my heart and only you in my dreams.

I wait for you.

I'm yours for ever more.

2011-10-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

“Click”, she didn’t notice the loud sound as it shattered the awkward silence between speeches and so the sudden flood of music shook her back to the room where she stood. Loud piecing sounds came from the darkness as the shadow rushed over and resumed a seated position. She once again contracted her face forcing a smile; she imagined she was smiling to a friend not the stranger whose eyes she could feel on her. She begun to spread her hands outwards, reaching the imaginary rope that would take her to somewhere better, as she swayed her hips backwards, dropping her hands down in a graceful manner as she spread her arms out imitating a bird about to take into flight. She had always imagined what life would be like as a bird, thinking she could just fly away from her problems. The thought of being free filled her with the life she had been lacking only moments ago, her body felt weightless as she began to spin around, leaping up as high as her legs would outstretch.

In her mind she flown to where the cherry blossoms bloom all year, the ground was covered in snow and fallen pedals as she skipped across the white and pink scenery. The wind pulled at her cloak draped around her bare body, pulling along it heat from her making her nipples fully erected. She stopped between two cherry blossoms and stared in awe at what seemed to be a single black rose pushing its way through the snow until fully protruding, the colours contrasted with the white snow made the rose seem supernatural. She slowly approached the rose and stood onto the balls of her feet and gave the rose a gracious bow dipping her head well below the rose. As she pulled her head back up the sweetest smile appeared onto her face as she pulled her hand from under the robe and reached for the rose, quickly and swiftly she plucked the rose from its roots and embraced it between her soft tender breasts as though trying to heat the rose up with her own body. Finally she whispered to the rose in the softest voice “liberté” and with that the rose had become nothing more than char in her hands. She dropped her heels back into the ground and once again broken into a skip; the wind was harder now, tugging at her cloak like a persistent lover. Before long the cloak also found freedom leaving her bare bodied and revelled flawless curves around her hips and bottom.

She started to feel the chill as the clouds began to converge together covering the crisp blue sky with angry looking storm clouds. She could hear the music nearing its end, sense the feeling returning to her body – and so she held her breath bracing for what was coming next. She never did let go of it – her breath.

2011-09-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

It was only time until her tears would start to flow. She tired her best to keep them in, staring at a fixed position in the room – imagining she wasn’t anywhere near here. She wanted to be somewhere open, with the wind in her hair and the warm sun on her pale skin.

She uses to love the sun and love how the wind whispers her name as she runs along the tall grass blades – This was where she belonged. With confines as far as her eyes could reach and with dreams as big as she could grasp with both her hands, at least until she was not able balance anymore.

Where nothing had existed yesterday and everything was only true if she could feel it in her heart, in her soul – only then would she present to the world with her dance, twirling and jumping as high as her legs would permit, always reaching for the sky and nothing less.

She would always shimmer with a magical aura, which would shine even more when she smiled as her soft emerald eyes light up like a well polished ring. It was not rare to see her smile, nor was it rare to see her laugh – but one could ever get sick of that laugh as it echoed through the open spaces swiftly and sweetly like a wordless hymn.

Suddenly, her thoughts were abruptly interrupted with that voice she had begun to loathe – “Alright then let’s get started”

2011-09-10T04:42:00.001-07:00

Her face began to contort, showing her discomfort. “Are you alright babe?” came a voice she had never gotten use to, at least not in this context. “Are you?” the voice echoed when she realised she had not replied, this time as emotionless as the first.

“I don’t want to ...” she forced those words out of her dry throat. The figure stood there without moving or responding so she attempted to finish her sentence “I don’t want to do this, Simon”, this time easier than the first.

What felt like a big relief only lasted long enough for her to regain feeling in her body once more until the eerie silence began to make her feel like she did something wrong. In her mind eighteen minutes had passed until the voice replied, “Yes you can, I believe in you.”

She stared at where the eyes of the figure were meant to be for a while, her lips trembling. She forced a smile on herself and gave the slightest nod which was almost instantly acknowledged merely by a “Good”, like a praise one would give a pet hamster – shallow and meaningless.

2011-09-10T02:55:00.000-07:00

“Flaunt it babe” came a voice deep from a faceless figure. She looked at it clueless; pretending not to know what was expected.

Her eyes wander across the room, or what she could make of it. “Try to open your eyes” came a command from the same faceless figure. It was so hard to stare directly into the light without squinting. Her hands begin to sweat although the room was quite chilly, with a constant draught blowing across her feet sending shivers throughout her body.

Her delicate body began to shake; it was hard to tell whether or not it was the cold or her nerves taking over. She felt like a deer in the headlights, frozen and memorized by the brightness of the light she was staring at. With every breath her chest rose and fell, it became more obvious as she began to take deeper breaths.

She mumbled shaken words to herself, soft enough to make sure he didn’t hear her. She could feel her hands starting to tremble more than just slightly. She slowly raised her right hand which meet with her left as they gripped together, trying her best to suppress the shakes. He didn’t seem to comment.

2011-07-31T04:00:00.000-07:00

I lack the ability to accept you for something less than what you are

Forgive me ...

2011-07-24T00:36:00.000-07:00

Beautiful, Unique – Unlike the rest

Not a surprise, you were the one I picked

Or maybe it was you who picked me ...

2011-06-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

You break my walls down and give me a reason to live...

2011-05-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

2011-05-22T05:37:00.001-07:00

You’re like the sun shine through the pain

Getting me through my day

thats all I need to say

no need for delay

2011-05-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

You give me that feeling I'll never forget

2011-04-24T03:04:00.000-07:00

Si tu m'aimes ; tu vas comprends moi n'importe quoi langue je exprimer me suis

2011-04-17T04:33:00.000-07:00

Felt like I’ve been falling for too long ~

But out of that darkness;

You pick me up and wrap your arms around me

2011-04-12T03:19:00.000-07:00

You give me a feeling I’ll never forget

You’re more than I can take

I can’t get enough of you

Mais moins de trois

2011-04-03T03:03:00.000-07:00

It took me that walk along those paths

to remember what I had once "forgotten"

Why it seemed to be;

why I loved you so to begin

and why I still love you

had not been forgotten

just safety stored somewhere

in this elated heart ~

I love you so

You'll always know

now go make me a sandwich * censored*

2011-03-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

Everything seems so lonely without you there

I really don't know what I'll do ...

2011-03-11T16:00:00.000-08:00

A day without you is like a year without rain

2011-03-09T04:16:00.000-08:00

There are some things I can't deny - But there are some things I don't want to deny

So even when times become hard ~ Just remember

I will not deny it.

I need you

2011-03-01T03:09:00.000-08:00

Autumn is coming; just another excuse to cuddle up close to you and watch the day pass.

2011-02-27T03:20:00.000-08:00

I love you cause you are you

and not just a face in the crowd

and not just an image replicated to please

~ Because your special

2010-12-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

Nothing ever seems out of place with you beside me

But then again nothing is as it seems whilst I'm beside you -

Because you make my ordinary world

Extraordinary

2010-12-12T04:18:00.000-08:00

You may not be the only girl in the world

But you're the girl I fell for

So that makes you the only girl in MY world

and as creepy as that sounds ~

I would not want it any other way.

2010-12-12T02:56:00.000-08:00

Your beauty is under-rated

2010-12-01T04:17:00.000-08:00

I don’t know why I do what I do

~ But it seems to make you smile

How I adore that smile

~ It seems to make you laugh

Makes me believe I’m doing something right

~ It seems to keep you by my side

So I can call you mine for one more day

I’m yours to hold for as long as you need me

Your mine to love for as long as you let me

And for as long as I’m yours and your mine

Be assured that I’d still love you with everything I’m given

2010-11-23T18:08:00.000-08:00

I don’t want to lay here thinking of you; waiting for life to take its toll

2010-11-10T20:57:00.000-08:00

When the rain begins to fall; I'll be that sunshine in your life

2010-11-10T05:19:00.000-08:00

'cause I'm so fucken dumb

2010-11-10T03:01:00.000-08:00

Broken glass lay shattered ,

strategically spread across the room

painted with the blood and tears of yourself

hands broken, unable to be used to guide oneself

unable to find balance whilst still intoxicated

it's so cold here - but seems like you have become trapped

growing weary of this sight ...

it's too bright to open theses eyes

for you may atlas see your reflection

and the thing you hated most in this world;

what you've become.

2010-11-04T14:07:00.001-07:00

Rawr last exam!

2010-10-29T15:56:00.000-07:00

Three years ...

I've waited for you speak those words once again

never though, have i thought it'd be intended

to sway my path

since it has seem, given one chance too many.

So it may appear time before

when I lived like I wasn't aware that;

Without you ~ is incomplete

2010-10-28T03:58:00.000-07:00

Your my một trong một triệu

enough said

now go cố gắng học

and chúc may mắn

- Anh đang chờ em

2010-10-28T03:43:00.000-07:00

The abrupt feeling in your gut

has the subsequent basis

that directs your memory

and hence reminding you ;

you are only human

and you have feelings -

Hate and jealously ~ Being the minor

in the large array that humans experience.

Save your breath ... it's far from over

2010-10-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

Don't have anything better to do than think of you

Then again - the only thing better than thinking of you is being with you

I'm still waiting to see that smiling face of yours

waiting to wrap my arms around you

waiting to embrace your existence

~ until that time again;

Imagination and memory will serve their best to comfort this lone heart

and drag me along another day ...

2010-10-20T02:20:00.000-07:00

Is this the way to let your feelings drift away

‘Cause I’m still here wondering

How you've become so cold

2010-10-17T20:37:00.000-07:00

They want to change me because I'm different - the same reason that you love me.

~ I can only wish that you'd love me even if I decide to be normal ... (just for one minute)

2010-10-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

Heres an idea ; how about you hold my hand ... and we go for a little walk down this path - 'cause your the only one I want to be with right now

You make my life brighter ~

2010-10-14T03:51:00.000-07:00

It doesn't matter where I lay tonight - your arms will always feel like home ~

As long as we are together, forever is never too long

2010-10-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

Baby one thing is for certain - theres a million girls around but I don't see anyone but you.

2010-10-10T18:55:00.000-07:00

Still, she'd be the only one I yearn for - Until this mess is over she'll be the one I'll wait for

Missing you already - Feel so empty without.

2010-10-07T05:46:00.000-07:00

With the rise of the sun, she’d be on my mind.

As it seems not once has she left these confinements

Laying there undisturbed, yet unforgotten

For when I once again lay to rest

As expected the thought of her

Keeps my wearily mind as awake

As when she’d first appear at the start of my day

But as all good things that end

I ask you to allow me for my slumber

And lay me to sleep you “evil” angel

日本語ブローゴ

2010-10-07T05:28:00.000-07:00

ぼくのガールフレンドをはなしたから、今日はとてもすごいよ！ぼくのガールフレンドは、とてもかわいくて、しんせつな人。だいすきよ！
ノート：これのブローゴはぼくのガールフレンドを書かなかった。=]

2010-10-01T20:38:00.000-07:00

Spring rain falls with grace upon the terracotta roof tops

a sound which becomes strongly associated with nothing more than her soothing breath

the echo of the wind becomes the remnants of her laughter

the protruding streams of sunlight like her gentle touch upon thy face

the warmth carried by theses streams ; the warmth she offers with her tender hugs

time as so passes as though time spent with her

for like a poorly written book ~ that ended all so swiftly

awaken with newly found melancholy

to find her not as though had dreamt

beside me all this time ~

I usually never ask for anything I don't think I deserve, but could you be mine ?

2010-09-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

With every journey there is a beginning, something sweet in the middle and then the end where you get a chance to gather all your thoughts into a bundle of happiness which you then keep with you. I’m afraid that the sun never shines that far for you to see that my journey has no ending, no happiness and no sweetness.

I'm over this life, can someone direct me to another? ~

2010-07-03T08:14:00.000-07:00

Hi, my name is ...

sorry but would you be of so kind and let me start again?

Givme your wallet!

2010-06-19T08:05:00.000-07:00

I life we knew before is gone

To find meaning in this world

You must travel to the darkest parts of the world

and find light where there is none

for those who have not loved

have not loss

(I can't remember the smell of her hair)

[but i can't forget the feeling of her hugs]

2010-06-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

You need not lie to me anymore

For these lies have made me so cold

And now that you decide to leave me

Just let me know

Where you would like me to

Cut myself ...

For

You ~ (Less than what I had remembered)

2010-06-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

The darkness is only worse when you’re not with me

However, I’d rather endure that pain to see you walk in the light.

2010-04-07T06:59:00.000-07:00

Because

Tonight your head is spinning

The fire burns with the brightness of the sun

Shine the light among these darkened corners

Cause these walls cannot hold your soul in

Paths paved with the alighted fire that burns

That was fueled by the your blood stained hatred

You seek redemption within the world

The coldness becomes ever so welcoming

Into the abyss you walk

Another hole in your heart made

When you see the end is not near

But only as far as the road leads

Only as far as your eyes can deceive you

The cold beats your heart once less

Before consumes you into the darkness

Now part of the cold you walk

The distance seems never shortening

Let you go I will not.

No way out

2010-03-31T16:53:00.000-07:00

You sit there looking into the yonder

what could have been, what should have been

all thoughts lingering in your head

with the absence of life in your face

you begin to shuffle towards the window.

to complement your ever so growing loneliness

the sound of crickets in the near distance.

these wall are barriers of your life

these windows show where you want to be

that door - is your way out.

2010-03-24T05:00:00.000-07:00

All hope shall be abandon’d for all who enter them doors

like the gates of hell we all approach unwilling

until unable to withstand the burden of life

we fall off one by one

GOOD LUCK IN EXAMS! :D

2010-03-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

I love you cause I need you

I need you cause I love you

Have you ever...?

2009-10-17T21:52:00.001-07:00

Have you ever stood under the stars for hours on end just waiting?
Have you ever found yourself lost and hopeless?
Have you ever locked yourself in from the world?
Have you ever looked at a picture and broken into tears?
Have you ever found yourself hurt beyond repair?
Have you ever took a breath and wanted not to take another?

If so....

Have we ever talked?

Untold

2009-10-01T05:18:00.000-07:00

These scars tell me a story
With each line showing their own little interruptions.
These tears tell me a story
With each drop showing unsaid words of disbelief.
Those eyes tell me a story
Like locked doors shutting out the outside world.
These hands tell me a story
The soft hands that collect blood and tears.
These words tell me a story
But I see through these lies,
I see through those blood shot eyes
That mask like smile
And …
I’m sorry.

2009-10-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

Think about this;

"Learn from yesterday, Live for today, Hope for tomorrow. Beacuse one day your life will flash before your eyes so make sure it's worth watching. "

Words from Dragonfl[ii] (:

Under the stars...

2009-08-28T04:05:00.000-07:00

Under theses stars are were your illusions disappear and you notice that you stand alone in with plains as far as you can see. The moon raises high above the crisp dry sky, breaking through the darkness with its shine. The eerie silence becomes to be all to familiar and the darkness begins to feed on your loneliness. Suddenly you get hit by a cold draught, sending a chill down your spine. You think you hear something creeping within the darkness behind you and turn around hesitating to what you think is a trap. As you turn back you feel a warm breath along your neck ... your body freezes still with fear and regret. You think to yourself how cliché this seems but still your body is frozen from what sudden shock, you feel to barrels push against your back, cold ... heartless. You suddenly break into laughter and then drop onto the grass, with the blood running down the wound in your back...
You laugh and tuck the shot gun back into your inner jacket and leave me on the ground using nothing more than your shoe to kick me onto my back.

If you had my life within your hands, and I asked you to let me go ... would you?

Clueless much?

2009-08-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

I don't know, is there a slight line between insanity and mental illness?

Monday, the day i loath of all days the longest timeframe before another weekend, Another Sleeping frenzy. Eh, I guess school another task that needs to be accomplished between the date that it was given out and the due date, a grievous task only able to be accomplished after pain staking hours in these small dungen like rooms just trying to keep yourself awake and from the pits of the dark abyss in your wildest dreams. Time to face the ever fast moving world again, thinking of how things use to be won't be a difference in life what comes ahead is what matters.

When will this road end? Where will it take me? How will i get there? Will you be there waiting for me?

Take me to where the cherry blossoms grow, To where the air lingers with its freshness ... To where you will be.

Don't you just laught at our maths teacher's "teaching" methods? I sure do.

2009-08-23T06:55:00.000-07:00

Huh, maths homework ... so sleepy... Career's assignment ... so sleepy... Modern history homework ... "asleep"

Bloody hell thats boring as hell. Fun filled weekends my arse, I'd rather have been sleeping the 48 hours away. Anyways Sunday 11 am woke up with a bad taste in my mouth, found out it was popcorn... "wft?". To the sound of my phone ringing with the news of a lifetime, "Please recharge now to get an extra 10 dollars on the next recharge", go screw yourself optus. 12pm to 7 pm, all the homework and whatnots that i needed to get done was all sqwashed into that small timeframe and yet i still managed to fall alseep countless times.

Woke up at 8pm, thinking how the hell did i mangage to sleep through the sound of the T.V running at full blash, A foolish attempt to stay awake i says. (fast forward) Shower, Eat, Watch that shinny box of moving pictures and present time!

12.02 am, reflecting on why I am still pondering on why I'm still doing various types of school work. Sleep is only moments away

I can sense it (x.

(x

2009-08-22T05:21:00.000-07:00

First blog.

Day one, I woke up at 1 pm ... Still kinda sleepy, went back to sleep.
It was only after i realised that the day was passing me by while I hid my head below thoses sheets that I found the will to "embrace the day" and woke up, felt like shit on toast i did.

Stood in the shower still half asleep with the water running like a water work show. Anywho, there was still a career assignment staring me in the face, but when I forced the will power to start the assignment I got side tracked and went for to get some food. By the time i looked at the clock the read a little over 7 pm. and it was only until it was only until I decided to write this blog that I remembered of that god forbiden assignment, Not cool...